The early 20s




Here i am sitting in my early twenties wondering do i even have a purpose in life. What is the purpose of life i want to ask everyone ? Is it having the fittest body? Or being rich than most of the people you know ? Or is it thriving in your current career? I want to know the answer. If this is what purpose of life is than I'd rather be nothing at all and be happy. But will the guilt let me live? Everyday is a new challenge for me , exhausting myself, self doubting, having a little hope for future , doing something for the same and then back to exhausting myself and the cycle goes on.
I've seen people around me of varied ages with tremendous amount of stress just to achieve and run after the so called success. Some are running since decades and some were just forced to run, run a race that wasnt even meant for them. 
I being in my early twenties might have figured out  what my purpose is for coming here in this world . It is living everyday to work hard for whatever i want in my life , for my people , for my happiness,  for my career , for my health.  And while doing so just taking care of my needs and my wants , being lazy and just sleeping all day long , treating myself on my hard days because i deserved it ,so that no amount of regret is there in my suitcase when i leave this world.
My purpose is to live the life i want, the way i want. 

I wish to leave with a suitcase full of memories, hardworks, happiness, a little bit love and copious amount of peace. 

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