Grief


Grief   

There comes a time when you lose someone so close to your heart that when they are gone it feels like a part of your heart is missing.

I for once thought i will always get over it somehow as time passes. But little did i know how much in delusion i was in after all . 

Grieving for someone will break you down. Its like showing a kid a chocolate and then just throwing it out the window as soon as he tries to reach it. As if it was never there. 

Its not just about missing someone everyday. Its missing them so much that you dont find the reason to stay alive anymore. Why should you ? The core part of the reason why you were here doesnt exist anymore. 

I wonder how people expect us to come out of it. To "move on" , to live as if nothing happened , to put on a happy face and just live. 

Grief isnt something everyone understands. It isnt a feeling that just comes and goes. Its like a boxer hitting you out of nowhere and keeps on hitting you when you least expect it to.

It breaks you so much that u dont even want to find the pieces back anymore. Let it be , let everything be as it is because now it doesnt matter anymore. 

And no not everyone gets it.  

The reason to live , when someone stoles one of the main reason you live ,you have nowhere to go. Just like a hopeless searching for water in sahara. Eventually he'll turn into a maniac senselessly looking for something that doesnt exist anymore. 

One day , i know one day i might be able to get through it. But i very well know that i will not get to it. 

The cost of living without any reason is something i dont find worth much. 







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